“born stubborn, me… will always be”

Despite my earlier protests about the festive season, I have to admit that i’ve had a really good time. There was a tiny little wobble (as my more emotional moments are now being referred to) when my mum kept asking me if I was okay… I blatantly wasn’t (just reflecting on things, coupled with alcohol got to me a tiny bit) but really didn’t want to talk about it. Very nearly had a teary outburst, but I kept it under check.

I’ve started feeling a little bit optimistic about 2008 over the last 2 days… I dunno what’s bringing about this shift, but I really want it to be a good year, both in terms of emotional growth and in terms of successes at work/uni. Speaking of which, i’ve just been given 80% for my latest assignment which I am well pleased with. If positive thinking is going to bring about this change then i’m going to give it a try. I deserve to be comfortable and content with what I have. I deserve to find someone I can grow old with. I deserve to be given a chance to aim higher than I think I am capable.

I genuinely hope that the people who deserve to have, have had a lovely holiday so far; and that those who don’t deserve to have, haven’t. I’m sure those of you reading have a good idea which category you fall under.

~ by Andrew Fallon on December 26, 2007.